14 February 2012
I’m waiting for you … patiently at the moment as it happens. That’s rare for me … patience is a virtue that’s definitely in development for me a lot of the time. But right here, right now, I’m being good and patient. I’m just scanning the horizon softly, biding my time.
At other times I long to see you and start our time together, but it’s fine that it’s not now. I know it will happen when the time is just right …
It will be so worth the wait. You will be amazed at just how good it is. My love is so good – it’s like nothing you will ever have known and I have yet to discover too how your love will look, feel, sound, smell and taste, in every dimension of our being together. I’m so anticipating our unchartered voyages of discovery, revelation and laughter.
As man and womankind, we are born with the gift of love … there is the physical realm – affection and ties that bind us together so we support and survive and there is also passion – the life force, pushing us to pleasure and procreation. Next there is the realm of being seen deeply, of finding a kindred spirit, of feeling part of something bigger than yourself, being recognised and reflected back in all your glory. There is simple togetherness, rubbing along as a couple, facing the day in company, a thousand million words and silences; touches and flashes.
But then I have known so much love in my life. The word has been said to me and at me and by me, so many times. I used to guard what I gave; I was spikey and defensive, because I felt I had been unfairly attacked by it in the past. Then I decided to change, to open my heart and give freely and in the flow. Now as a tactic, neither of these paths seemed to have lead me to any where in particular … except perhaps towards heart break or inertia … but that is the past, my Mr One and now it is time to move on. It is up to US now to create a new époque – one that is grand and quiet and which sweeps away the hurt past and sees our many lessons in love as our future joys.
Where shall we move on to you and I? I sense it now, glimpse our time together – these future memories which will be ours alone.
How will that love be, between you and me? It will be what it will be, that is our little secret for tomorrow, when our time becomes today.
Do I dare to call you ‘soul mate’? Several times already in this life I have had those words uttered to me, so I’m guessing I’m allowed more than one soul connection! Such a label doesn’t really matter to me my Mr One, because we will write our own book of life and of love, together.
Will we have a different kind of love? I really believe that you cannot love two different people in the same way, so that will have its own perfect consequences for us and so I can move to you, new, free and unfettered; surrendered and sure.
Well now, it’s nearly the end of another Valentine’s day and I have faced the day happily. I have given and shared love, I have celebrated; I have walked the woven fabric of my life and I am contentedly biding my time. For the time will come, OUR time – that’s a simple fact, a knowing for me. So I will prepare myself well and be as realistically ready as I can be, in body and heart.
Which means that I’m loving you already and I’m so looking forward to you, my Mr One.
Happy Valentines Day, darling.
With so much love,
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