Coughs in the Time of Corona

HEADS-UP: I’m not posting this to create a blog storm or debate, so please scroll by on or refrain from commenting if you’re in the mood for that today…

So there I was, unable to sleep at 12.40 this morning, taking pics of the full moon – the June Strawberry Super moon, no less…

I was feeling antsy and couldn’t sleep, despite the fact I’d had a day of chronic sore throat, dizziness and absolute knackeredness…

June’s Super Strawberry Full Moon

The reason would seem to be that I’ve tested positive for Covid…

Not even having had a cold or influenza for years, I’m not enjoying the experience… But I regard myself as fortunate, because if I hadn’t known it was Covid-19, I’d have assumed it was ‘just’ a bout of flu…

Maybe my symptoms are on the mild side because I’m fully vaccinated; have lucky DNA; or it’s a mild strain of the disease…

As I said, I’m not wading into any vaccination debate, because I had my own reasons for getting fully vaccinated, despite the inherent risks.

I’m on day 3 now and didn’t feel like sharing initially because I thought I might be judged for going ‘out on the town’ on Saturday…

So maybe I caught it or maybe I spread it then, or maybe not, who knows???

I’ve deliberately been responsible and sought to reduce risk, avoid crowds and continue with hand washing, gel application and the usual hygiene routine. But then I’ve also met friends, been out for meals, gone to the cinema and hugged…

On Saturday I had the most brilliant day out, letting my hair down; but I don’t see today’s Covid result as the wages of sin, as I may even unwittingly, have had it before then… If I’d had symptoms or a suspicion, I wouldn’t have gone. But I am where I am…

So in one sense I don’t care about the catching – I’m not a victim; but I DO care about the spreading. So I’m staying at home and avoiding people to reduce the risk of passing it on, and not only because I look, smell and feel like a wrung out, dirty, old dish cloth…

The government has dropped its Covid regulations and recommended instead that we exercise caution, but basically get on with our lives, so I cautiously did just that and slowly built up my confidence with the outside world again…

But I’m going to revert to hermit mode again for a while, not least because Covid cases are on a rapid rise again. A fact which I was aware of from a news perspective, but of course has really hit home now I as I cough and dizzily read / catch up on the statistics…

Yesterday at home, I struggled on with work, forgetting to take good care of myself. I felt lousy and seemed to attract every whinging, irritating idiot I know, into my Inbox… And to be fair, maybe they felt the same about me…

Could be it was due to Covid, hay fever, menopause or the full moon, but I just felt ANGRY…

Today feels different… I’m surrendering to what is and I’ve realised that I REALLY need to take care of and put myself FIRST. Interesting how the Universe then coalesced and at the point of that realisation, I suddenly received an unsolicited offer of support…

In the meantime, my littlest cat has just thrown herself at me and is lying across my chest and purring into my face. She’s a sweet, soft weight, her body totally relaxed and melted over my Covid heated corpse.

Whatever happens from here on in, it’s enough for me right now to just inhale her happiness and healing…

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