Lockdown Lessons in the Time of Corona

I was looking forward to the end of lockdown 2.0…

I had made plans… imagining meals, banter, laughter and filling myself up with family, friends, flirting and fun, as I finally burst out of my calm COVID cave…

I had some big life goals coming to fruition too… Opportunities bloomed. And unexpectedly, some hidden parts of my heart and past came calling, asking to be healed and reviewed… All in all, the Universe was sweetly aligning…

THEN came the realisation that the transition to Tier 3 would scupper my day dreams, which in seconds, had suddenly dissipated into dust.

And my big life plans… they all had to be put on hold…

After I heard the announcement for the new measures, I cried for nearly an hour… Feeling as if the rope I’d been hanging onto, was rapidly running out, burning my hands as I desperately tried to hang on to its’ rough, tattered strands…

Now the world crowded into my brain. I was beset by anxiety and a cloud of misery hovered over my head…

Bloody COVID… Bloody tier system… Boo bloody hoo…

So I had to turn away from the noisy exterior world and the even louder traffic rumbling around my brain…

I chose to tune in, instead. I listened to my intuition – the pure part of my soul that senses with glorious clarity what is and what will be. I journaled and walked and worked it out.

As a result I realised I’d been in reactive mode for so very long. Then… just when I thought I had a route out, the road map was rudely snatched out of my hands…

But now I had paused and put the work in, my instincts told me what had to happen next. It felt liberating, loving and just the way it needed to be…

And since those realisations dawned on me, life still has its chaffing challenges, and it’s not all neatly aligned, but now I have faith, not fear. I also have a new set of plans – recalibrated with grace rather than grumpiness…

So today that meant going for a walk with my 2 oldest friends, accompanied by a daft dog, all of us together again at last…

I drove to meet them, happy and excited. We walked through a crisp and sunny winters day, chattering away. And at the end of it I felt so grateful – appreciating the simplest of feats, that of putting our feet one in front of the other. We 3 took steps which moved us in the same direction – all of us in our circle of familiarity and friendship, not cowering from COVID, but coming together to navigate it…

Then the sun and the temperature dropped and we stopped, bumping elbows, then heading away in 3 different directions…

And so it was, on this day of days, that I drove home with a smile on my lips. I felt beautifully blessed, having lived in each moment and savoured each one. And maybe we 3 were socially distanced, yet regardless, we were all distinctly happy.

Three lasses & a dog, coming out of lockdown

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